Trust Me, I'm Lying

2011-06-01T09:39:00.000-07:00

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: mineral water
2. Last phone call: mom
3. Last text message: guru les.
4. Last song you listened to: 25 minutes
5. Last time you cried: this afternoon

HAVE YOU EVER:

7. Been cheated on: no \m/
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: ahaha no
9. Lost someone special: yes
10. Been depressed: yez
11. Been drunk and threw up: no

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. black
13. purple

14. gray

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2011) :

15. Made a new friend: yes
16. Fallen out of love: no
17. Laughed until you cried: yes
18. Met someone who changed you: ......no
19. Found out who your true friends were: found them even bfr 2k11
20. Found out someone was talking about you: lol yes
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: no
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 3
23. How many kids do you want to have: 3
24. Do you have any pets: no
25. Do you want to change your name: no, even tho id like some sanskrit or scandinavian name :P
26. What did you do for your last birthday: pizzas
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: internet
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: ugh idk holiday
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 30 minutes ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: a lot.
32. What are you listening to right now: nothing
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: haha no
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: ukk nyeet
35. Most visited webpage: twitter, tumblr
36. What's your real name: Anggia Paramita
37. Nicknames: Anggi or Anggia
38. Relationship Status: single
39. Zodiac sign: libra
40. Male or female?: female
41. Elementary?: dd
42. Middle School?: labsky
43. High school/college?: labsky
44. Hair colour: black
46. Height: 166
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: now? no
48: What do you like about yourself?: psssh
49. Piercings: 2
50. Tattoos: sadly no but id like to get one or more if my parents/beliefs let me. he.
51. Righty or lefty: righteey

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery: smp
53. First piercing: sd
54. First best friend: ayu?
55. First sport you joined: swimming
56. First vacation: abroad? spore

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating: no
60. Drinking: no
61. I'm about to: waste another unproductive hours.
62. Listening to: nothing
63. Waiting for: nothing

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids?: yes!
65. Get Married?: of corzzzzz

66. Career?: :p

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both. hehehehe >:)
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: trouble maker

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger: no
77. Drank hard liquor: nope
78. Lost glasses/contacts: all the taaaaaaym
79. Sex on first date: what is this? teen mom? haha no
80. Broken someone's heart: maybe yes
82. Been arrested: no
83. Turned someone down: ha emmm
84. Cried when someone died: yes
85. Fallen for a friend?: yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: yes
87. Miracles: yes
88. Love at first sight: no unless he is novak djokovic.
89. Heaven: of course
90. Santa Claus: no
91. Kiss on the first date: no but it might happens to everyone maybe not me
92. Angels: yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no
95. Did you sing today?: yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: no.
97. If you could go back in time: OMG YEZ
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: aaaah dont remember
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: i guess no. as long as its not commitment..
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: ?

2011-06-01T09:17:00.000-07:00

ARE YOU?

Are you single - yes
Are you happy - yes or no
Are you bored - all the time
Are you naked - no
Are you a blonde - no thank god
Are you moody - yez
Are you a lover or a hater - both
Are you hot or cold - no im katy perry
Are you eating- no. NO.
Are you sad - yea

WHATS YOUR?

Name - Anggia Paramita
Nicknames – Anggi. Anggia.
Any birth marks - Yuzz
Natural hair color - Black \m/
Eye color - dark brown
Height - 166
Mood - nothing.
Favorite colour - black. purple.
One place you want to visit - london.

DO YOU?

Do you believe in love at first sight - if that man is novak djokovic probably yes. ha.
Do you believe in soul mates - yes and..... no
Have you ever been hurt emotionally - yes.
Have you ever broke someone’s heart? - probably yes.
Have you ever liked someone but never told them? - most of the time. i dont go around and tell boys i like them. thats just weird.
Are you afraid of commitment? - tbh yes
Who was the last person you hugged? - someone from my class... forgot.
Who was the last person you said "i love you" to? - andrisa or ici

WHAT ONE?

Love or lust - love
Cats or dogs - cats. shih tzu are cute tho
Few best friends or many regular friends? - few best friends
Television or internet - internet
Chinese Or Indian - british. or spaniards. or just europeans.
Wild night out or romantic night in - wild night out.
Money or Happiness - happiness. and money. and stilettos. and bags. and dresses.
Night or day - night
MSN or phone? phone.

HAVE YOU?

Been caught sneaking out - yes
Been skinny dipping - no
Bungee jumped - not in million years kay thanks
Lied to someone you liked - yes
Wanted an ex bf or gf back - noooope
Cried yourself to sleep? - yes
Cried because you lost a pet - yes

IN A PARTNER?

Smile or eyes - both. smirk is okay tho
Light or dark hair - dark
Hugs or kisses - hugs
Shorter or taller - taller obv
Intelligence or attraction – both but more to intelligence so
Romantic or spontaneous - spontaneous.
Funny or serious - funny. and can be serious too
Confident or shy - confident
looks or charms - charms

HAVE YOU?

Ever performed in front of a large crowd - yez
Ever done drugs - not in kazillion years
Ever consumed alcohol? - yes
Ever been on a cheerleading team? - no
Ever Been on a dance team - yes
Ever been on a sports team - yes
Ever been in a drama play or production - yes
Ever been in a rap video? - wtf no

TEN LASTS?

Last phone call you made - driver
Last time you worked - yesterday
Last person you tackled - tackled? like pepe-alves tackle? forgot it was a long time ago so
Last thing you missed - eraser. ha
Last thing you ate - papaya

LAST PERSON TO?

Sleep beside you? - mom
You went out to dinner with? - friends
You talked on the phone to? - mom

WOULD YOU RATHER?

Pierce your nose or tongue? - tongue
Be serious or be funny? - funny
Drink whole or skim milk? - lactose intolerancy. no milk at all.

ARE YOU?

Simple or complicated? - complicated.
Retarded? - no

DO YOU PREFER?

Flowers or candy? - ergh i hate both y tho
Gray or black? - black
Colour or Black and white photos? - colour
Sunrise or sunset? - sunset
Staying up late or waking up early? - staying up late

DO YOU PREFER?

Sun or moon? - moon
Winter or Summer? - summer
Left or right? - right
10acquaintances or having two best friends? - two best friends
Sun or rain? - rain
Vanilla or chocolate ice cream? - chocoloco!
Vodka or Jack Daniels? - ahem none
Nervous Habits? - no
Are you double jointed? - no
Can you twist your tongue around and roll it? - yes.
Can you raise one eyebrow? - no
Can You cross your eyes? - no
Do you make your bed daily? - no

QUESTIONS?

Which shoe goes on first? - right
Ever thrown something at someone? - everyday
On average how much money do you carry with you? - 100k idr min
What jewellery do you wear? - bracelet
Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? - cut
Favorite ice cream? - green tea
How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet? - none
Do you cook? - instant noodles? yes.

IN THE LAST MONTH HAVE YOU?

Had a relationship? - no
Bought something? - a lot
Sang? - yes
Been hugged? - yeah
Felt stupid? - yez
Missed someone? - not really
Kissed someone? - mom?

LASTS?

Last car ride? - home
Last song played? - 25 minutes

2011-06-01T08:37:00.000-07:00

i miss the time when i can eat normally without feeling guilty.

i miss the time when i always think that food is okay.

yes, i always say that 'ah i dont like that. thanks'

or maybe just a simply 'no, thanks'

if only you know whats running on my mind that time.

if only.

until 2 weeks ago the doctor told me that my digestive system is all fucked up.

and he told me to eat normally.

and my mom was all 'gdi just eat ya know how hard is it to eat'

oh eating is easy when your brain cant stop counting how much calories in that food, your brain keeps telling you that eating that is a sin, and your brain keeps telling you that youre guilty for eating that. sure mom, that is easy as fuck.

and that leads me to eat nothing at all in the end, most of the time.

this has been happened for months,

months before this fucked up digestive system, mom.

and if youre asking me, have you tried to eat normally?

yes. this afternoon. and my stomach hurts as hell.

idk what should i do.

i want to be able to eat without feeling guilty.

tell me. tell me how.

2011-04-04T02:27:00.000-07:00

its funny to see a smiley face in my older posts. i was happier.

2011-04-04T02:05:00.000-07:00

"whats wrong?"

yes, those 2 words. all i need is to hear those words from someone. it doesnt have to be a friend of mine... even stranger would be fine...

everything around me is so fucked up and that includes me.

fucked up.

i used to hear my dad's fave song in saturday morning, but now all i hear is yelling. yelling here, there and everywhere. fighting here, there, and everywhere.

and my role model now has turned into a major asshole.

high expectation leads to huge disappointment.

note-to-self: stop expecting. people are jerks.

2011-03-19T00:13:00.000-07:00

hahahaha all of my older posts are plain funny. yeah sometimes life can be that bad hahaha omg i cant stop laughing my ass off.

so, hi again. its been a year huh. im 16 nowwww, and going to be 17 this october! yay! and nay! im getting older. the end of year 11 is getting closer, which means year 12 is getting closer too. yea. f. m. l. another try outs, exams, courses, tests, another failures and..... repeat. wait what its 2:21 pm already? ha. ha. ha. sure time flies that fast.

2011 is not that good i think. the nye was all messed up. or at least, ive been better in 2010. but since 2011 is still a long way to go...... lets just see......

2010-09-02T00:11:00.000-07:00

kay, just forget about my last post. that was mean, and i would never forget that, but i have to forgive him. fyi, he didnt say "sorry". he'll never say that word unless it's idul fitri, ha. so after all, i forgive him. done.

im fasting.

and now, im sitting and typing, with tissues all around me. yessssss, flu. i cant stop sneezing, and literally look like anak ingusan. so i skipped school today :(

anyway, they just need to be written. so if you feel offended, sorry maybe that's you, or not.

stop being so noisy, its annoying. AND PLEASE, try to understand someone's feelings. Please stop with those 'i-dont-fucking-care' thingy. and, when im tired/sick, all i wanna do is get some rest, so dont force me to do something. you're not my boss anyway. just do it yourself.

ok. so, bye.

2010-07-23T19:28:00.000-07:00

nice one, dad.

whats next? youre going to tell me that im such an idiot? a pain in the ass? worst daughter ever?

you once told me that i have no brain, dad.

i was 13.

do you know that i cried the whole night that day? no. cause you just dont care.

and i will remember that for the rest of my life.

last night, he left me for dinner because he told me that i have a bad attitude and he said he lost his appetite by seeing my face. ha. best dad i ever met. best dad i ever have.

and once again, i cried for a long time last night.

again, he didnt care.

dad? is he even qualified as a DAD?

dad shouldnt be like that, right? .......or no?

its funny to call this place as a home. it seems like a hell hole to me.

everyone in this house are fake.

i dont want to live here.

maybe you'll think that im such a childish brat or whatever.

but seriously, i never liked that. that's just........ mean.

2010-07-09T05:17:00.000-07:00

this is goodbye then.

see u soon.

i hope you'll get what you want, or they want.

i still hoping that you'll come back.

and...

!uoy ssim i

2010-07-09T05:05:00.000-07:00

xi ipa 3, cant wait to meet u, all of u.

and xd? i miss you, a lot.

thanks for everything!

2010-07-09T04:54:00.000-07:00

forever is a lie.

no, not forever-is-until-he/she-find-someone-new.

thats just simply...weird. pathetic.

i dont believe in forever.

i mean,

everything, everyone, they are going to change.

none of them are going to stay the same.

especially, feelings.

i can say, im gonna hate you forever.

well maybe less than 24 hours, i dont hate 'you' anymore.

see? everything's changing. ha.

2010-07-05T18:02:00.000-07:00

hello mellow. happy holiday people.

i went to australia last week. it was... nice. and i got science class, im happy but.. ya, just simply happy. i already bought Wanted, the last book of PLL series, which is, the best thing about this holiday, even though the ending was kinda creepy.

and anyway, i havent watched Eclipse. i feel weird, cause new moon was so bloody romantic and I HATE IT. and i guess Eclipse is so....bloody romantic just like new moon. well at least i can see more and more volturi(s). haha.

so hows your holiday people?

i feel empty.

2010-05-27T09:11:00.000-07:00

a picture of a happy family. yes. a picture. not real.

maybe it is real, somewhere else. not here.

but im getting used to it.

welcome to the.... family?

2010-05-12T06:37:00.000-07:00

Hawhawhaw, hellaaaaaaaaw.

I'm back.

Lapinsi and TPO? done. YEAH.

I got a temporary pedobear tattoo. HA.

(I'm not a pedophile, f-y-i. Too young anyway. But, pedobear is hella funny hahaha)

AND FINALLY, blame... no, i cant blame anyone. shit. ok, blame that FFFUUU thing, i made a tumblr account. again. for the third time --> http://ancixeea.tumblr.com/ i havent posted anything. You know, lame internet connection, busy, too sleepy to reblog (wtf?) yah you know it better.

ANYWAY, IM SO HAPPY. SO SO SO SOOO HAPPY, LIKE REALLY REALLY HAPPY. Why?

I bought "Killer". Yes, that book. FI-NA-LLY.
I bought Van Alen Legacy too. Hard cover. YEAH \m/
All Time Low is coming to Jakarta! :D

And, i need extra $$$ badly.

(Using bahasa from now on, males mikir)

Karena setelah diitung, tahun ini sangatlah menghabiskan uang, mengempeskan dompet, mengeringkan atm dan lain sebagainya.

Setelah kemaren ke Musiklub, dan menemukan album - album bagus, jadi pengen beli.

Terus, minggu kemarin baru aja ke kinokuniya. Baru masuk udah nemuin 1 novel yang mau dibeli. Terus masuk ke dalem, nambah 3 novel. Terus ada 2 series yang mau dibeli, kurang lebih totalnya udah 12 buku. Jadi total semuanya: 1+3+12= 15 novel. ok, tambah di periplus 1. 16 novel. Ha, seandainya ada uang 3 juta aja (aja??!) dateng dari langit. Sedih.

Terus keluar masuk toko baju dan sepatu. Yang jelas disini = banyak. banget.

ngeliat kondisi iPod yang bener-bener butut. Umur udah 2 tahun, baret sampe udah gak bisa ngaca. udah gak bisa di hold. memori tinggal beberapa ratus mb lagi. I desperately need a new iPod. Gak tau deh cara nabungnya gimana TT_TT

Tiket all time low. Yuk. Dah. Bye.

Oh. Oh. dan mulai dari kemaren, gue meracuni Fia dan Maitri dengan Pretty Little Liars. Fia bahkan udah ketagihan HEHEHE. Maitri lagi dalam perjalanan. Woohoo :D

dan sepertinya XD besok mau jalan? harus jadi ya! :)

NIGHTSHOT

2010-04-24T00:14:00.000-07:00

Seriously, this is fuuuuuuuun.

2010-04-19T04:11:00.000-07:00

I miss you even more.

but i dont know who i miss.

or i dont want to admit

that

i miss you.

........

WEHEARTIT

2010-04-19T02:37:00.000-07:00

finally, i made a weheartit account. well, i like it anyway.

so, meet me there!

http://weheartit.com/anggiap

heart ya :*

2010-03-25T06:17:00.000-07:00

sheez. i want this one. pretty please?

I'M BACK.

2010-03-25T02:41:00.000-07:00

Yeah, i'am starting all over again. No, not relationship for God's sake.

So, you know, a long time ago, i decided to dump this one (ouch! sorry bloggie) and moved to another one. But, today, this morning, i thought that my-other-blog is such a... mess. A total mess, i can say, full of bullshit(s) which is not a good thing, so i deleted it.

And now, i'am using this one as my blog. Real blog, hopefully.

Cut the crap then.

My name is Anggia Paramita, i'm 15 years old (yes, finally). Owner of this blog. Nice to meet you (again), pals :)