Wednesday, June 1, 2011

1. Last beverage: mineral water
2. Last phone call: mom
3. Last text message: guru les.
4. Last song you listened to: 25 minutes
5. Last time you cried: this afternoon

7. Been cheated on: no \m/
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: ahaha no
9. Lost someone special: yes
10. Been depressed: yez
11. Been drunk and threw up: no

12. black
13. purple
14. gray

15. Made a new friend: yes
16. Fallen out of love: no
17. Laughed until you cried: yes
18. Met someone who changed you:
19. Found out who your true friends were: found them even bfr 2k11
20. Found out someone was talking about you: lol yes
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: no
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 3
23. How many kids do you want to have: 3
24. Do you have any pets: no
25. Do you want to change your name: no, even tho id like some sanskrit or scandinavian name :P
26. What did you do for your last birthday: pizzas
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: internet
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: ugh idk holiday
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 30 minutes ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: a lot.
32. What are you listening to right now: nothing
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: haha no
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: ukk nyeet
35. Most visited webpage: twitter, tumblr
36. What's your real name: Anggia Paramita
37. Nicknames: Anggi or Anggia
38. Relationship Status: single
39. Zodiac sign: libra
40. Male or female?: female
41. Elementary?: dd
42. Middle School?: labsky
43. High school/college?: labsky
44. Hair colour: black
46. Height: 166
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: now? no
48: What do you like about yourself?: psssh
49. Piercings: 2
50. Tattoos: sadly no but id like to get one or more if my parents/beliefs let me. he.
51. Righty or lefty: righteey

52. First surgery: smp
53. First piercing: sd
54. First best friend: ayu?
55. First sport you joined: swimming
56. First vacation: abroad? spore

59. Eating: no
60. Drinking: no
61. I'm about to: waste another unproductive hours.
62. Listening to: nothing
63. Waiting for: nothing

64. Want kids?: yes!
65. Get Married?: of corzzzzz
66. Career?: :p

67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both. hehehehe >:)
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: trouble maker

76. Kissed a stranger: no
77. Drank hard liquor: nope
78. Lost glasses/contacts: all the taaaaaaym
79. Sex on first date: what is this? teen mom? haha no
80. Broken someone's heart: maybe yes
82. Been arrested: no
83. Turned someone down: ha emmm
84. Cried when someone died: yes
85. Fallen for a friend?: yes.

86. Yourself: yes
87. Miracles: yes
88. Love at first sight: no unless he is novak djokovic.
89. Heaven: of course
90. Santa Claus: no
91. Kiss on the first date: no but it might happens to everyone maybe not me
92. Angels: yes

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no
95. Did you sing today?: yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: no.
97. If you could go back in time: OMG YEZ
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: aaaah dont remember
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: i guess no. as long as its not commitment..
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: ?

Are you single - yes
Are you happy - yes or no
Are you bored - all the time
Are you naked - no
Are you a blonde - no thank god
Are you moody - yez
Are you a lover or a hater - both
Are you hot or cold - no im katy perry
Are you eating- no. NO.
Are you sad - yea


Name - Anggia Paramita
Nicknames – Anggi. Anggia.
Any birth marks - Yuzz
Natural hair color - Black \m/
Eye color - dark brown
Height - 166
Mood - nothing.
Favorite colour - black. purple.
One place you want to visit - london.


Do you believe in love at first sight - if that man is novak djokovic probably yes. ha.
Do you believe in soul mates - yes and..... no
Have you ever been hurt emotionally - yes.
Have you ever broke someone’s heart? - probably yes.
Have you ever liked someone but never told them? - most of the time. i dont go around and tell boys i like them. thats just weird.
Are you afraid of commitment? - tbh yes
Who was the last person you hugged? - someone from my class... forgot.
Who was the last person you said "i love you" to? - andrisa or ici


Love or lust - love
Cats or dogs - cats. shih tzu are cute tho
Few best friends or many regular friends? - few best friends
Television or internet - internet
Chinese Or Indian - british. or spaniards. or just europeans.
Wild night out or romantic night in - wild night out.
Money or Happiness - happiness. and money. and stilettos. and bags. and dresses.
Night or day - night
MSN or phone? phone.


Been caught sneaking out - yes
Been skinny dipping - no
Bungee jumped - not in million years kay thanks
Lied to someone you liked - yes
Wanted an ex bf or gf back - noooope
Cried yourself to sleep? - yes
Cried because you lost a pet - yes


Smile or eyes - both. smirk is okay tho
Light or dark hair - dark
Hugs or kisses - hugs
Shorter or taller - taller obv
Intelligence or attraction – both but more to intelligence so
Romantic or spontaneous - spontaneous.
Funny or serious - funny. and can be serious too
Confident or shy - confident
looks or charms - charms


Ever performed in front of a large crowd - yez
Ever done drugs - not in kazillion years
Ever consumed alcohol? - yes
Ever been on a cheerleading team? - no
Ever Been on a dance team - yes
Ever been on a sports team - yes
Ever been in a drama play or production - yes
Ever been in a rap video? - wtf no


Last phone call you made - driver
Last time you worked - yesterday
Last person you tackled - tackled? like pepe-alves tackle? forgot it was a long time ago so
Last thing you missed - eraser. ha
Last thing you ate - papaya


Sleep beside you? - mom
You went out to dinner with? - friends
You talked on the phone to? - mom


Pierce your nose or tongue? - tongue
Be serious or be funny? - funny
Drink whole or skim milk? - lactose intolerancy. no milk at all.


Simple or complicated? - complicated.
Retarded? - no


Flowers or candy? - ergh i hate both y tho
Gray or black? - black
Colour or Black and white photos? - colour
Sunrise or sunset? - sunset
Staying up late or waking up early? - staying up late


Sun or moon? - moon
Winter or Summer? - summer
Left or right? - right
10acquaintances or having two best friends? - two best friends
Sun or rain? - rain
Vanilla or chocolate ice cream? - chocoloco!
Vodka or Jack Daniels? - ahem none
Nervous Habits? - no
Are you double jointed? - no
Can you twist your tongue around and roll it? - yes.
Can you raise one eyebrow? - no
Can You cross your eyes? - no
Do you make your bed daily? - no


Which shoe goes on first? - right
Ever thrown something at someone? - everyday
On average how much money do you carry with you? - 100k idr min
What jewellery do you wear? - bracelet
Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? - cut
Favorite ice cream? - green tea
How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet? - none
Do you cook? - instant noodles? yes.


Had a relationship? - no
Bought something? - a lot
Sang? - yes
Been hugged? - yeah
Felt stupid? - yez
Missed someone? - not really
Kissed someone? - mom?


Last car ride? - home
Last song played? - 25 minutes
i miss the time when i can eat normally without feeling guilty.
i miss the time when i always think that food is okay.

yes, i always say that 'ah i dont like that. thanks'
or maybe just a simply 'no, thanks'
if only you know whats running on my mind that time.
if only.

until 2 weeks ago the doctor told me that my digestive system is all fucked up.
and he told me to eat normally.
and my mom was all 'gdi just eat ya know how hard is it to eat'

oh eating is easy when your brain cant stop counting how much calories in that food, your brain keeps telling you that eating that is a sin, and your brain keeps telling you that youre guilty for eating that. sure mom, that is easy as fuck.

and that leads me to eat nothing at all in the end, most of the time.
this has been happened for months,
months before this fucked up digestive system, mom.

and if youre asking me, have you tried to eat normally?
yes. this afternoon. and my stomach hurts as hell.

idk what should i do.
i want to be able to eat without feeling guilty.
tell me. tell me how.

Monday, April 4, 2011

its funny to see a smiley face in my older posts. i was happier.

"whats wrong?"
yes, those 2 words. all i need is to hear those words from someone. it doesnt have to be a friend of mine... even stranger would be fine...
everything around me is so fucked up and that includes me.
fucked up.
fucked up.
fucked up.
fucked up.
i used to hear my dad's fave song in saturday morning, but now all i hear is yelling. yelling here, there and everywhere. fighting here, there, and everywhere.
and my role model now has turned into a major asshole.

high expectation leads to huge disappointment.
note-to-self: stop expecting. people are jerks.